#walk for the angels
#god's tiny angels
#walk to remember
The pictures are finally up from the 9th annual God’s Tiny Angels walk-a-thon. “Walk for the Angels” It is a truly amazing experience being there. It’s something that you just can’t explain. Being around all of these men and women who have gone through or are currently going through all of the same things that you are. This is only my 3rd year walking and in the past 3 years it has grown so much. This year we had 486 walkers and that doesn’t count the people who stayed behind.
These are the lovely ladies (and mike) in my group. When I go to group I don’t really talk much but I do listen and they all give the best advise and all of them have really just brought me through these hard times, as they do for so many more people. They are all truly amazing people, with stories of their own. Each and every one of them are so strong, helpful, and caring. Without them I don’t know how I would have survived these past few years.
Bridget, her daughter and I.
I worked at the merchandise table this year. Had a blast!
My friend Valerie, me, and my cousin Maggie walking for my angel.
This was the balloon liftoff. In my opinion the best part of it all. It’s so emotional and heartwarming. It is just really hard to explain until you’re standing there watching those balloons go.
I found out the other day that I am pregnant again. I took like four pregnancy tests. Right now i’m a little over 4 weeks along. I have never been more nervous for anything in my life. I am so excited and scared and happy. I just want to go to the doctors to make sure that everything is alright. I just want to hear the heartbeat.
I feel like everybody thinks i’m not as excited as I should be but i’m trying not to get so attached this time. I just don’t want anything to go wrong and me be as heartbroken as I was last time. But I am so excited about becoming a mother. I just really hope that everything goes smoothly this time.
They told me that my due date would be July 7th and I have an ultrasound scheduled for December 6th. I couldn’t be any more excited to see my little rainbow baby. <3
i feel like this a lot, i know i was pregnant i didn't do a test because i was waiting for my next period to do one, it came but it was late and wasn't normal and then what happened next was heartbreaking, nobody understands how i'm feeling, it was only 2 weeks ago and its already been forgotten, do i have a right to be sad about something that i don't know a million percent was real, i just know i was and i had a miscarriage, i feel so so sad like i've lost a part of my heart xx
Yes, you have a right to grieve the loss of your child and don’t ever let anybody tell you differently.
I felt the same way that not long after everybody else had moved on with their lives and i was still sitting there in the dark. Everybody had acted as if my baby never existed. Only you can keep your baby’s memory alive because nobody else will.
Nobody will understand unless they’ve been through it. And even then, everybody grieves in their own way so they still won’t 100% understand.
You should check and see if there are any support groups in your area. I go to a group every month and it really does help me allot.
#mommy of an angel
I am so proud of myself.
I sit here and think about how I was the day I came home from the hospital, Or even just a few months ago and me today.
I have survived,
I never thought that i’d be able to say that. I was afraid that I wouldn’t get through this. That I wouldn’t start to heal. That I would be stuck in that mind set and be lost forever.
I have definitely came out on the other side.
I mean, I still have my bad days. But they just don’t happen as often as they used too.
I can finally honestly say that I’m happy.
What hurts the most is that I don’t have any proof that you actually existed.I say it in my head over and over again and I sound crazy because I know that you did. But I don’t even have an ultrasound. I never got to hear your heartbeat. I have nothing.
A mothers day wish from Heaven.
Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven,
and though it must appear
A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit,
your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother,
as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought,
I saw every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card,
from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too,
no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands,
but oh the tears she’s cried.
I thought that if I wrote you,
that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now,
I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me;
we still share laughter too,
Memories are our way of speaking now,
would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart,
her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, s
sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden,
there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents,
trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark,
though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way to remind her
of her wondrous worth.
She needs to be honored,
and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark,
I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do;
to you I’ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her,
how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself,
when she joins me in eternity.
Brittany, just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you today and sweet little Aiden. I will be lighting a candle in remembrance of him tonight. Happy 2nd Angel Birthday Aiden <3 <3 ((Hugs)) Shauna (Pinwheels From Heaven)
Wow, Thank you so much for remembering, Shauna! That truly means allot. (: